today has been a really hard day for me

1.. one of my best friends got in a car wreck last night if there would have been a car coming down, she would of died, if she didnt have a seatbelt on she woulda died from the impact, or if the hood of the car would have been a little bit closer to the windshield it woulda shattered in her face.. lets just say i was extremely emotional today because of that.. and i was so happy to see her it really hit me after ya know she sat down at lunch and i realized she could not be sittin there and it could be empty! yeah i cant deal with stuff like that to be honest... i love you kelsey so freakin much!

2... all the seniors that i have gotten close with over the past 3 yrs... today was their last day of high school... thats real tough for me.. like thats such a bigger step in life and i know most of them really dont understand it yet.. and they really dont have a clue whats going on.. and what have they have been doing for the past 12 yrs of their life.. is bout to be completly different.. so wierd.. so wierd.. and now their leaving and i honestly dont know.. like i have so many friends in the graduating class.. i really dont want them to leave.. it sucks so freakin bad.. i mean some i could let them go.. but for the most part i rather them not go

3... one of my friends got broken up with today...

4.. im stuck in the middle of like 4 different friendships that are relationships like im friends with both parts.. and it sucks because they try to make it seem like ive been choosing sides and it sucks.. idk it sucks

5.. if i dont pass this test coming up in algebra i dont pass... and i cant play volleyball

6.. stress for volleyball it started this week and honestly idk

7.. Seans last day of highschool was today.. and now hes getting a car.. and hes getting a job.. and so many things in my life are changing and i never know how to deal with changes im so excited to spend my summer with sean hes amazing.. and i just dont know i am emotional .. and just had to express crazy feelings

k.thanx.

Hey:)!!!

i really am never on xanga but there has been a lot going on lately in my head and just in life in general

.... last week we had an anatomy project we had to pick a name from this list of ppl and do a research project and talk about them for 2 minutes and people made a big deal of talking for 2 minutes about someones life.. is that how its gonna be.. i havent even done anything to have someone talk for at least 2 minutes.... idk just makes me thinklol

alright next.. one80 last night was about dating.. and they talked about.. what are you in the relationship for? marriage? just to date around? if your just with that person just to date around and see what their like.. thats not right for the other person all your going to do is end up letting them hurt you.. and Chris said that girls tend to not let their guard up and trust the guys and the guys dont realize that girls are more sensitive and prolly have been hurt before and thats all so true for me i just i dont know.. a lot has happened to me and i dont really know how to heal all of that.. i guess its all on me

but anyway ive had a lot on my mind lately....

and memories of distant days come to life.. again</3

Yeah so Xanga isn't my thing anymore

 but i still have mad love for all of you:)

you should if you already havent get myspace!!! and if you aren't my friend already you should defintely be:)!

i love you all

&& most of all.. I Love You Sean

Happy Valentine's Day...

I Love You Sean